Davin Indah Love story

In a perfect world One we've never known We would never need to face the world alone They can have the world We'll create our own I may not be brave or strong or smart But somewhere in my secret heart I know Love will find a way Anywhere I go I'm home If you are there beside me Like dark turning into day Somehow we'll come through Now that I've found you Love will find a way I was so afraid Now I realize Love is never wrong And so it never dies There's a perfect world Shining in your eyes And if only they could feel it too The happiness I feel with you They'd know Love will find a way Anywhere we go We're home If we are there together Like dark turning into day Somehow we'll come through Now that I've found you Love will find a way I know love will find a way

This past week I felt lost and numb. I didn't feel any peace or joy in my heart, instead I hate myself. All the negative thoughts were coming to my mind, jealousy, hopeless, you name it. I know I have a trust issues based on my wild imagination. I feel bad to my hubby, he's so nice, patience and kind to me. Instead of gratitude, I push him to the corner and have a  suspicious thought that he's having affair. In fact, I disgusted myself. Not only that, I also felt lost in my works. It seems that I have no more control and have no idea what surprise will come tomorrow. Today is the eve of all saints' day  and I went to the church alone. I was in tear when we prayed litany of the saints. Two things I learnt from the saints are detachment, embrace the journey and faithful to God. I know that I couldn't run away from this process because this process is changing and moulding my heart to be humble, more loving and patience to the process and others. One love character tha...

Time flies so fast, our god daughter is turning 2. We celebrated in the intimate family setting. Happy birthday Faith, May God bless you, guide your path and may you grow loving God and be faithful to Him.

This year we celebrated Octoberfest with our close friends instead of just two of us. We had dinner and drink at Brotzeit last Sunday.

I never been so demotivated at work, however I can't avoid this feeling right now. My brain was freeze and saturated, I couldn't think any idea and I even didn't care about what's happening at work. I used to fight for my opinions, views and wanted to make it happen of what I want to achieve. However with the system that's so strict, I didn't even want to say anything. I knew that I still need to finish my fight as it's just beginning, it's just I felt so tired of running. I really need a good break, replenish my energy with new positive mindset and running again.

It's a family time after returning from business trip. We did bowling, foosball, lunch at KFC and hubby and kids continued with laser quest.

Continued from the previous blog, we finally reconciled the night before I left to Jakarta. It's a pruning time for both of us. We learnt to agree to disagree, accept the difference and embrace the process. Monday night, hubby sent me to the airport and we had a quick dinner at Burger King. This business trip was more for client site visit and I learnt a lot about different  business models from waste management, chicken farming and fish trading and it came direct from the expert as well We also met a prospective client as well as USAID at Embassy of United States. It's my first ever experience to enter the embassy for official meeting. I also had an opportunity to catch up with my childhood friend, it's really good to meet them after covid. I also It's been a fruitful week and looking forward for the next adventure in the next business trip.

Today was supposed a good day as we planned to have a couple time before I leave for business trip to Jakarta tomorrow, however it turned sour unexpectedly because of trival matter which is bikang ambon.It's kinda a miscommunication of what we perceived differently. In my mind, since we don't really have any plan to buy something urgently, I suggested to go to Vivocity to buy toys for my niece's birthday in Jakarta. When reaching there, suddenly I remembered that hubby asked our friend a favour to buy bikang ambon from Batam, so I just randomly messaged our friend if she's reaching to Harbourfront so we can collected directly there. Apparently, she has arrived this morning so I thought oh okay then. Then, she replied that our other common friend was going to go Harbourfront to pick up our other friends at 6pm, she will pass it to her. I thought oh okay, I will wait at Vivo then. When I mentioned this to hubby, suddenly he flared up and became enraged, because it's n...

It's been an ages for us to have movie date at night while the kids were sleeping.  So it's set, we had movie date night watching Ticket to Paradise, it's a new romantic comedy, light and refreshing. A few days before we had steak night at Harry's using Entertainer voucher one for one. I was so tired and frustrated about work and need to unwind so we had this quick dinner after my casting too.

Nothing is coincidence in my life. When I went to gym last Friday, one of my gym mate gave me  a piece of wisdom word. When I did deadlift last Friday, one of my gym mate approached and told me that I am strong, he couldn't do deadlift due to back problem. Yet he loves to run staircase 3 sets of 40 floors.  Me : How many minutes are you able to finish it ? Him : No, I never count the minute or how fast I am, I prefer to do in a steady pace and compose myself. He gave me a piece of tip. Him : When you run in the staircase, Don't Ever Look Up and See How Much More, because you will be overwhelmed and your energy will be dropped.  Look Down and try to step one stair at a time. Imagine that you are running in the flat ground and you will be able to keep pace and finish the rest without exhausting yourself. It's all in your mind When he finished his wisdom words, suddenly I remembered what happened in my life recently. I was so focus in achieving the goal as fast as I can and ...

I gave up trying to take control of everything, it really exhausted me therefore we decided to hire a new helper. It's not an easy journey, we took for granted when we got the first one quite easily but for this second one, we have interviewed 4 helpers and almost gave up. However, prayer changes everything and it's answered in God's time. Long short story, we were able to get a new helper and she joined our family in 1st October. She has 17 years experience in Singapore and Hongkong and 1 year older than me. I didn't doubt about her maturity as she has one adult daughter in University. We picked her up in the airport yesterday and we talked about her family background etc and we felt safe because all her family are working in the proper office job. It will be very unlikely they ask for money or depend financially from her. So far she's been diligent and hard working and problem solver. We love her including the kids, the kids feel so comfortable and respect her. Af...

After staying with us for 2 months plus, we bid farewell to my parents yesterday. They went back home to carry on with their own life.  At first, I was so nervous when they decided to come to Singapore and stayed for 1 month, because we will be very busy with works and school and nobody can entertain them, thus I am afraid they will get bored. However, things turned out better, they were willing to help out with simple household chores, cooking for our kids and taking care of the kids' wellness. My dad loved to go to wet market to buy his grandchildren's favourite fruit - mango and hubby's favourite fruit - pomelo. He can go there 2 - 3x a day and even able to see the price movement of fruits hahaha and knew which stall sells the good bargain. While my mom, enjoying chatting with her friends through phone when she's rest. She enjoyed cooking and thanks God they are healthy and joyful. I thank God for the time spent together and treasured every moment we had from eating ...