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5th Business Trip for this year (19 - 21 March 2024)

I went to Bali for this trip to organise the event for the project that I helmed. Thanks God everything was going well eventhough I was collapse after the event on Wednesday. Perhaps I pushed myself too much and my body couldn't handle the pressure and stress anymore. Hopefully everything is calming down after April

Reflection

It's been such a long time that I sit down, press a pause button and reflect back what has happened in my life, what things I should be grateful, what are the lesson learnt and what I should improve Things have gone so fast in my life and it's like unending cycle. It's been almost 2 months since I helmed the new project in the company I am working and it took half of my life. I felt like I had a new baby but not "literally baby", it's more responsibility as many lives are on stakes. I had no experience, no mentor and coach, no team per say, only one person who's not hundred percent fully committed in this project and on top of that, the company threw me in the deep sea that  I need to swim and survive. It reminded me back when I started my motherhood journey. With no knowledge, no experience, no mentor, no helpers and little money, we need to nurture the living baby and finally we survived. The first one was always the harder, but after the second and thir

4th Business Trip for this year (4 - 9 March 2024) - Happy International Women's Day

This is one of the most hectic trips which I had high stress level as we were preparing our second own event celebrating International Women's Day. The challenges are the company hands off so I prepared this alone with one and my only one team and representative from other organization, WeConnect International. We initiated this event end of February and just less than 1.5 months we made it happen. My company challenged me if I didn't get any sponsorship, just aborted the plan. I almost gave up but with encouragement from the counter part, we did the best. There are many adjustment from the ideation until execution and there are many hiccups that I need to do damage control and staying late and slept after midnight. I left my family and kids behind even though they were sick at home. I cried every night and told God that I couldn't do it anymore if You don't help me. Everything is not under my control. Thanks God the event went well, the participants were so happy and v

Self Rebellion and ambivalence

I am currently in the high stress stage and lead into self rebellion stage. This year my goal is to go back to healthy life style that's why I decide to go into TONE Program in the hope to reset by body composition. Unfortunately because of the strict diet rules, it attacks me back.  I am the person that very conscious about what I should and should not eat become very rebellious. French fried, fried chicken are looks so good and yummy even though I know that it's not good for the body. I have been craving something that actually I hate. Topping up with my stress at work, it really double down the self rebellion. When I have high stress, I just want to eat something that I like but due to this strict diet, I even can't eat it. The diet rules said no fried food, no carbs, limit types of vegetables, fruits and cooking method. It seems that my body fight hard for this rules. Even exercise has specific rules, no cardio only weight resistance and I really want to do cardio inste

3rd Business Trip for this year (26 - 28 February 2024)

This is my 3rd business trip in the row and this week is quite short trip due to an event on 28 Feb. It's my first time sharing about our project to 50 pax. Nervous, yes but after sometimes I got hang to it. There are many room of improvements however I felt good after that.