When date doesn't go well !

Today, I am taking a leave and have planned to spend the time together with hubby to have quality couple time. I have booked the lunch and dinner a month ago and have been looking forward into today.

However, suddenly things don't go well according to what I am expecting.

Last night, my hubby dropped the bomb. I was tired after the whole day and he dropped the bomb before sleeping. I can't think so I just said sorry if I didn't communicate well and hurt him and just went to sleep.

This morning, the day I have been looking for. I woke up early since I will be training a new client. Along the way, he is just silence and only answers when I ask questions.

Since I don't want to effect my morning mood, I just go along. After he picks me up, we go to Botanical garden for morning walk. During the journey and our morning walk, then we start talking what makes him unhappy. He told me what happened yesterday, what he expects me to do, what he offers himself to do.

I am so overwhelmed, 3 days ago we just had an argument and I thought everything is settled and I just tried to step out of comfort zone then suddenly another bomb dropped.

I told him that I have been struggling to change myself to be whom he wants me to be and I try to change because of him.

I am tired every now and then that I always received the complain because of my weaknesses.

When I am with him, I just feel that I need to make sure that my behaviour is according to what he expects and make him happy otherwise his mood will change and affect and make me guilty.

Then, ok we are agree that if I need to change, it should be from within not from external.

After that, we go home to prepare ourselves for lunch date. I have dressed up nicely but he's still not in the good mood. The whole lunch date is disaster. I guess it's the worse date I ever have this year.

He's not in the mood, the food was not nice, I pretend that everything okay eventhough it's not okay.