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Reconnect heart to heart

Last Saturday we had intense talk, reconnecting heart to heart again at our favourite place in happy and sad days, Marina Bay Promenade.

In the past few weeks, I feel no connection with him. He's been very nice and I am grateful for that however there's something blocking me thus after my serving to EGCC recollection and attending fellowship at PD KKIHS, I asked him out to have a good talk.


We strolled at night and I started first telling him about my feeling and what's happening with me.

It started with the gift exchange between him and his fling. It's kinda annoyed me but I tried to brush it off and keep it under the blanket. However, it's getting worse. Slowly but sure, I built up the wall in my heart.

Thus I told him what I felt and it's not right for me. He listened and explained his point of view. At first. he tried to defence but after I told him how hurt I am when he was not able to give himself 100% totally to me and how long I should wait, it's been 2 years since he has a fling.

He apologised sincerely that he's been hurting me and promised to let go that fling completely. In fact, he's been trying it by attending the mass almost everyday to ask God's grace.

I am not angry or hate him, instead I feel merciful and love him even more and want to help him out from this situation.

I know it's not easy but I promise that I will journey and we walk together to overcome this.

We had a fruitful night and reconnect again heart to heart


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