I would like to write what messages I received from God through my senses, experience, nature, and people.
Day 1 - 1 October 2023
The day I started my novena. I was burst to tears during the Sunday mass especially when I saw our oldest son holding the cross during the entrance procession. I was burst to tears second time when I saw our second son accompanied the priest for offering and delivered the wine and water during offering liturgy. And last burst during communion when I received the body of Christ.
I didn't know the meaning because it's just happened like that and the tears just stop by itself.
I guess it's the work of Holy Spirit to give me grace and by watching my kids, they are my strength during this novena journey.
In the evening, I had dinner in our favourite Thai restaurant and shared with hubby what I felt. His advice is only one to be grateful and try to think something everyday what I am grateful for.
Day 2 - 2 October 2023 (Feast of Guarding Angel)
When I did my usual routine - morning exercise, suddenly when I saw our picture when we went to Lourdes 12 years ago, I was burst in tears without knowing the reason.
Then I made an oath, if God delivered me from this agony and answered my prayer, I will bring my parents and family to go to Lourdes for pilgrimage.
Day 3 - 3 October 2023
Nothing exciting or upsetting happen, but when I presented my idea about upshecle during BCG, I received many positive feedback from the cohort and it's encouraging.
Day 4 - 4 October 2023 (Feast of St Francis Assisi)
Today is not the good day to begin, we had an argument in the morning for trivial matter and I don't understand why he gets so upset. I just want to confront him back but I decide not to do it.
Apparently the old case resurface again and it aggravates the matters. In the end we have a deep talk until 3 am to straighten out and I burst to tears. I felt all the burden is lighten up.
Besides, there's an affirmation during bible study when we talk about Romans.
Day 5 - 5 October 2023
There's something weird happen, out of the blue I received the message that one of sustainability companies views my profile and ask me to apply for the position.
The job is strategic partner manager, the salary is more or less like what I have now, remote like what I wish for and the office is the same building like what I am now.
It's kinda funny but this to remind me that nothing is impossible for God.
Day 6 - 6 October 2023
It's a Children's Day today, so I and hubby take half day leave to spend quality times with the kids. We go to JB to play go kart, having dinner at our favourite Japanese restaurant, Sushi house.
We really had a great time and it's something that I have been missing in the past months.
Then, I also received reply from the job that I applied yesterday. The HR asks more data about my experiences. I reflect on this, yes I want to quit from the current job and there's an inclination to say all the good things in writing which sometimes may not be the whole truth, or should I state about the reality to be honest to myself and to the HR company.
I pray to God to guide me when I reply her message so whatever I write it's not about me, but Holy Spirit that guides me and I surrender it to God. If it's supposed to be mine, I will get it whatever it happens.
Day 7 - 7 October 2023
We went to the builder and we feel that this group may not be suitable for us anymore as we had different style. This perhaps a sign that we should focus on KKIHS instead of stepping into two places. However, we won't make any decision yet, and we will bring this into our discernment prayer. And I replied the HR today, I felt peace after replying her email and I surrender it to God. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be, if it's not then it's not.
As usual, we had couple date and today is special as we bring our couple friend to have supper at JB. We talk about holiday and adventure and kinda refreshing.
Day 8 - 8 October 2023
Today is Sunday and we attend mass, something awesome happen, Fr Valerian's homily is about climate change and sustainability and it's supported by Vatican letter about Laudate Deum that the earth is no longer warming but boiling and we need to do something to take care of the earth.
This is something that I was called to do and it's kinda affirmation from my next job. Besides when I woke up, suddenly there are 3 things that come to my mind why I need to move from this company
- Stagnant / no more personal growth / no additional support from the company
- Company needs to have new blood
- Sustainability driven
And this verse from Phillippian 4 : 6 - 7 reminds me to be grateful and hopeful to God.
Then we have family lunch pre-celebration of Ted's birthday at Grand Mercure and we are able to use 50% voucher and it's kinda worth it. Happy tummy, Happy life !
And last but not least, I do self care and kinda feel good afterwards.
Day 9 - 9 October 2023
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