A recollection day - Be Still

Last Friday became an unexpected recollection day for me.

I didn’t plan it, but somehow it turned into one of those light and peaceful days when I wasn’t preoccupied with work and instead focused on caring for my soul.

It all started at the gym. I was watching an interview on the Heaven & Earth podcast featuring John Kim, a Christian investor, who shared how he practices discernment in every investment decision—even when it doesn't make logical sense. His deep trust in God’s guidance struck a chord with me.

From there, I was led to another video—this time a sermon by Rick Warren about surrendering control to God and praying, “Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.” As I listened, it felt like God was revealing His answers to me.

One statement pierced through my heart:

It resonated so deeply. Lately, I’ve felt like God has been quiet, that doors are closing, and I’m left wondering where He is. But maybe this silence isn’t absence—it’s a test. A test of my faith, my character, and my love for God, even when life doesn't go according to plan.

Through this quiet revelation, I’ve learned three important lessons:

1. Forgiveness
To forgive myself. To forgive others. Even to forgive God for the things I don’t understand. I need to release the bitterness from past wounds—whether from my company, colleagues, or circumstances—and bless those involved. Letting go of negative thoughts is healing.

2. Reordering My Priorities
I was so consumed by the pursuit of success—wanting the spotlight, admiration, and career growth—that I neglected the emotional presence my family needed. Though I was physically around, my heart and mind were elsewhere. My husband gently reminded me, but I hardened my heart. It wasn’t until this moment of stillness that I was reminded of my first and foremost vocation:
To be a faithful, supportive, and loving wife.
To be a nurturing, present, and joyful mother.
Everything else, including my career, is a bonus.

3. Do Everything with Integrity
When WinterBuddy didn’t take off as I had hoped, I started trying to force things—manipulating the system, cutting corners. But it only brought chaos. So I cleaned everything up. I may not have customers yet, my followers are few, and resources limited—but maybe this is where God wants me. With something small, pure, and surrendered.
Because from the little that is honest and surrendered, God can multiply

Now, I’m learning to truly surrender—not just asking God to bless my plans, but to listen for His. I’m not the CEO of this business. I’m just His employee. And if He says, “Not yet. Just rest and be still,”—then I will.

Here’s the Prayer of Serenity that has become my anchor on days when I’m unsure if what I’m doing is making a difference: