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When the faith and fidelity are challenged !

One fine Saturday that I won't forget.

We have planned to go to Adventure Cove with the kids and our friends. It's all starting well, everyone is excited and looking forward for the fun. We reached there around 2.30pm.

We started our journey from the lazy river as a family.  Then we wanted to try other attraction - wave pool, unfortunately our youngest son is our weakest link, he's afraid to try the wave pool and we met our friend and split up.





Our eldest and second son went together with them and hubby decided to be with me and our youngest son. Less than 5 mins, he decided to try another slide and told me that he wanted to have fun also.

I decided to stay with our youngest and found something that suit his. We decided to queue for Tree house big bucket while hubby queued for rocket slide, that's the last time we parted nicely.


After 30 mins queueing up at Tree house, we had a chance to play but less than 5 mins, our youngest son gave up because he felt very cold and decided to do lazy river as it's his favourite attraction. 

We did 3x in total and I asked him, do you want to play other attraction ? he said no and I asked him if he wanted to finish and sit, he still hesitated as he still wanted to play.

I was at loss, I also wanted to play and have fun, but nobody take care of him. I was looking for hubby but not avail. Finally meeting my other friend and asked her and her replied triggered my emotion.

Suddenly all negative thoughts came and I was so angry. In my thought, should I fight for or give up the chance to explore the park and have fun ?

I decided to fight for... I ask my other friend to help looking after him while I decided to go for wave pool.

That's the last chance for me to enjoy wave pool, it was fun but my heart was half broken.

And I wanted to try the slide but thought it needs two people and I was not adrenaline person thus I need someone to accompany me. Then I met my friend's helper who told me that hubby was in the entrance of lazy river.

Running towards the entrance and seeing him having fun with the ladies, my emotion was erupted. I shouted at him from the top. I know it's the most foolish to do, but with the half energy I have to fight for what is mine, I have no regret.

In the end, he accompanied me for the rocket slide. He explained the situation and I accepted it and let it go.

If you think the stories has ended happy ending, it's not. It's just the beginning of the unveiling the truth.

During our journey back home, he's very quiet and I knew something it's not right.

After dropping the kids, we went to nearby mall to purchase some gifts. We started to talk and he explained that he felt it's not fair for him when I shout at him as he has no intention to have fun with the ladies.

I apologise and told the reason behind and what I felt all awhile the way he treated our common girlfriend.

Then the truth was unveiled that he actually had a crush with our another close friend who I never thought about it.

After that, I was quiet along the way, I didn't know what to say, speechless, confused with many questions.

This is where our faithfulness and fidelity  are challenged. Forgiveness and merciful heart are challenged.

Then suddenly, he told me that he didn't want to go tomorrow for our activity watching movie together as he wanted to avoid misunderstanding again.

I am just quiet and don't know what to say. I only ask myself, are you a coward ?

After breaking my heart and it seems that it's my fault to have wrong perception.

It's like the sword piercing my heart but I just felt numb. I distracted myself by preparing the xmas gifts and drinking  a bottle of bubble wine and two glasses of gin and orange juice.







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