The hardest fight

The past two years have been the toughest of my career, leading to significant personal growth. Over the last 18 months, I’ve been fighting alone—hunting for clients, advocating for them, navigating internal management struggles, and standing up for myself.

I hoped things would improve with the arrival of a new commercial head, but unfortunately, my expectations weren’t met. During a quarterly company gathering, management presented our achievements and targets for Q3, but their goals felt vague and unrealistic. Staying true to my character, I spoke up in front of the entire team, allowing my emotions to take over, which backfired.

I found myself in a difficult situation, facing the new commercial head in front of my CEO and teammates. I was frustrated because he preferred to work independently rather than foster teamwork. Both my teammate and I were new to the division and needed guidance, but all we received were instructions to close deals within three months—without any product or sales training.

I felt justified in my anger, as these expectations were unrealistic. For the next two days, I was consumed by my emotions, vowing to go my own way and help my teammate while disregarding the commercial head. I even joked with my husband about who would survive longer at the company.

My husband patiently listened to my complaints, maintaining a calm perspective. Once I began to calm down, he asked if he could share his thoughts. I agreed, and he helped me analyze the situation, discussing the potential consequences of continuing to clash with the new head. He offered strategies to handle the situation more effectively while preserving my integrity.

I followed his advice, which included the difficult step of apologizing for my outburst during the meeting. Negative thoughts and doubts tried to derail my resolve, but I found strength through faith. Just before my flight to Singapore, I called the commercial head, apologized, and explained that my reaction stemmed from feeling overwhelmed during the transition.

He accepted my apology and understood my position, allowing us to move forward. I felt a tremendous relief as the weight lifted from my shoulders.

While I’m unsure of my next steps, I’ve decided that I won’t stay at this company for long. I’m committed to finishing the Finclusion project, as I genuinely want to empower women and contribute to cybersecurity efforts to protect people from fraud and scams.