Dream Job ?

I was lost the past week in what I want to do in my career. 

I love my current job, want to do the best but there are many things beyond my control.

The process is very long and a lot of parties involved and in the end all my hardworks will go drain when there is missing in the check list.

It's very frustrating but what can I do ? This is not my company, I am just an employee like anybody else.

I try to motivate myself by listing down what I love about my current job

1. Management 

I report directly to CEO whom I know he's a real entrepreneur, he doesn't mind to get his hand dirty. He never looks down to any employee, perseverance. I learn a lot from him and the reason I move to BD department is to help him bringing the revenue to the company.

Sometimes his movement is unpredictable but I totally understand as we are a startup company, we need to adapt quickly with the situation.

2. Coworker 

I love my team mates, we could work well, helping one another and covering up each other's tasks.

We have a good chemistry to work together especially with Indo team. Yeah sometimes they are a bit slow and do on their own pace. Overall I still can understand that as long as there's no politic involved.

3. Work life balance 

The perk joining this company since the covid starts is I have a choice to work from home most of the time. I can go gym in the morning, having healthy lunch, power nap if needed and still able to look after the kids. This is something that I treasure because I still have control in my life.

4. Nature of the job

Meeting people, hunting new companies, learn different businesses, attending trade events, travelling are what I love to do. And this role as sales associate actually has all of these. That's why I never getting bored and it makes me alive.

Things that discourage me in my work

1. Monetary compensation

I feel unfair when I was promoted to be Sales Associate with new responsibilities but they never increase my basic salary. It's been 6 months since I am still with my old salary scheme doing new roles.

I want to bring it up again during performance review with my CEO and see what is his opinion.

2. Standard of Procedure

I feel that the process is very long from getting the new prospect client, close it until the product is live. The SOP is very rigid and there's less flexibility which is very difficult for me to close the clients.

I understand that this SME has high risk to be default payment, but on the other hand if we have no flexibility in the SOP, it means that they are not the right target market.

Well, I don't know, perhaps I am new in this industry thus I may have different perspective.

Anyway, eventhough I didn't plan to jump ship so soon, I am already planning for back door with no pressure.

Come what may and I hope everything gets better and better.