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Trust is to be earned

After all these dramas, hubby promised to keep the chat short and I requested to keep the tuition timing on time, no more longer chats after that and he promised that also.

Yesterday was a moment of truth. He told me that he will leave around 9.30pm and reaching home at 10pm. I waited for his call since he usually informed me if he's on the way home until 9.31pm.

Since he's not calling, I decided to do night jog to relieve my anxiety and cortisol hormone.


Until 10pm, there's no call from him too. I was fuelled with negative thoughts. I told myself, returning home after my run, I will smile and be nice as usual to him but I will do crazy thing, I plan to book the tickets to Japan bringing my kids secretly. I wanted him to feel losing everything that's precious.

Around 10.10pm, he called and told me that he's home already and found out that I was not around.

He told me it's a surprise to test me whether I have trust in him.

To be honest, I didn't trust him fully yet.

He's been extending his tuition timing while leaving me nervous every time he gives tuition to this woman's kid. How can I trust in his words after what he has done to me.

I told him trust is to be earned. I can forgive him but to trust him fully take months to build depend on how he behaves and keeps his promises.



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