Davin Indah Love story

Last Friday we had our first ME Love circle, we were asked to come earlier by the presenters and apparently we were chosen to be the next new batch of presenters. We need to attend deep ME weekend retreat to dig deeper about ourselves, relationship and prepare to be the presenters. It's not an easy task due to the big commitment, we need to write the presentation guided by the senior mentors, present and guide the participants and sometimes to counsel them. Well, as what we received during the ME weekend retreat, the "new adventure". Perhaps this is the "new adventure" that God has prepared for us to embark the new journey to make an impact of other people's live and to be the living testimony of God's love.

This past few days we watched "How to get rich" TV show from Netflix. It's an enlightening and enriching as I have a little knowledge about money management. I am grateful that hubby takes care everything including family finances and I don't need to worry what to eat the next day. However this show gives me a deeper insight and motivation to be a good steward and rethink again what I want in my life. Rich life doesn't mean owning all the materials, everyone has their own definition of rich life. As for myself, I keep thinking about it what I really want in my life, what is my definition of rich life. Then I come up with a conclusion. My rich life is able to travel around the world without worrying about money. I want to stay at least 1 month in each country, exploring and spend time, eat and stay like local, learning something about their culture, perhaps doing some volunteering works that can give a social impact to the society or the environment. I just need to...

This year Mother's Day is special and I was touched by the gift that our youngest son gave to me. On Sunday morning when I was serving God in KTM and PD KKIHS, hubby told me what happened before the mass. He wrote a prayer request to Mother Mary, it's a simple yet powerful to hope all the best for all mother haha. Then in the evening, candidly I asked him what gift he want to give me ? and he presented a handmade rosary made from pipe screwer and beads. He like an angel for us to remind us to pray to Mother Mary. A week ago he also bought a stalk of rose from his school bookshop using his own saving. To celebrate Mother's Day, we had simple dinner at Jurong Point with our kids. Thank you Lord for the gift and blessings to us.

It's Saturday night and May 10 hold a special moment for us when we started our courtship 17 years ago. Thus we decided to have a night date after settling down with the kids. We decided to have supper at Holland Village area, eating yakitori and donburi.

My gratitude jar list, Thanks God for 1. I am alive 2. I am healthy and fit 3. I am able to breath fresh air, using all my sensors, tasting food, smelling my perfume, listening to my kids' laughter and scream, watching my favourite show in Netflix, writing and typing this blog, creating content for #SATE 4. My hubby, my best friend forever who's always been on my side when I am ups or downs 5. My hubby who accompanied me today joining the recollection 6. Our 15 year marriage, we are still here together hand in hand in all the seasons 7. The love sparkles in our marriage relationship 8. The 3 healthy boys whom have been entrusted to us 9. The eldest boy, even though sometimes his acts are puzzling us, but he still had a good and pure heart and able to take care his siblings 10. The middle boy, who has fatherly material, caring for his siblings, responsible and diligent 11. The youngest boy, who has leadership charism, special gift and more mature than the other kids in his age 1...

Today I served as keyboardist the recollection of KTM and PD KKIHS collaboration event with the theme Renew and Reconnect. It's a heart warming to see the familiar faces and brought back the memory 15 years ago, the good old days when both of us were very active in KTM and PD KKIHS and served there happily without bothering about all politics in the church and the organization. We attended 2 sessions today hosted by Fr. Valens and Sr. Euphrasia. The first session was about Humility. Humility is the foundation of Christian life like what St Augustine said in his quote. Humility is not thinking about ourselves less but thinking less about ourselves. And by God's grace alone we could have the spirit of humility otherwise our human nature will take control and we can become prideful. The most dangerous of pride is spiritual pride especially when we thought we are more knowledgeable and wiser than the rest.  Humility is also the virtue that reminds us everything we have in this worl...

Thank you, Lord, for the trials that come my way. In that way I can grow each day as I let you lead, And thank you, Lord, for the patience those trials bring. In that process of growing, I can learn to care. But it goes against the way I am to put my human nature down and let the Spirit take control of all I do. 'Cause when those trials come, my human nature shouts the thing to do; and God's soft prompting  can be easily ignored. I thank you, Lord, with each trial I feel inside, that you're there to help, lead and guide me away from wrong. 'Cause you promised, Lord, that with every testing, that your way of escaping is easier to bear. But it goes against the way I am to put my human nature down and let the Spirit take control of all I do. 'Cause when those trials come, my human nature shouts the thing to do; and God's soft prompting  can be easily ignored. I thank you, Lord, for the victory that growing brings. In surrender of everything life is so worth while. ...

  This is what I feel right now, walking in the desert alone. These past few days I felt in low spirit, felt like loser and idiot. All negative thoughts and self doubt attacking me. I questioned myself, am I a capable sales person ? do I value add the company where I am working ? am I worth the salary I receive ? do I spend more than getting the results ? I tell myself that I am worthy, I am good and try to learn from free LinkedIn courses how to be a better sales person. I know that God is there and watching over me, but I just can't see it yet. I want to escape and running from the current situation but I know that's not the answer. I need to embrace and trust God's plan. In addition to that, I felt more down this morning when I saw hubby's chat with her. In my head level, I try to tell myself that it's merely just a chat, friendship's chat, nothing more than that. But I can't lie that I felt uneasy in my heart. I just felt unfair that he cares so much, go...

I have been in dilemma these past few weeks whether I should stay or try to look for new opportunity outside. One part of me saying to stay as my ultimate objective is to help this company to be profitable then I'm done, however another part of me saying that I'm useless as I don't bring enough results and it feeds me with self-doubt. I have been applying any business development / account executive / sales reps job in SaaS / tech industry without clear direction, it's more runaway from problem than intentionally looking for the job. However, God gives me so many signs and affirmations to affirm that I need to stay here until the time is up for me to move to other companies. These are some signs as far as I remember to affirm my decision 1. When I travelled to Jakarta last month and met my childhood friend, she's a HR manager of one of thhe prominent banks in Indonesia and she told me that this job suits me very well. 2. When I met my first client, he brought me for...