One day before my business trip is my birthday, when I came to mass, one thing that I asked during mass is to give me courage, peace, strength and grace to embrace the journey and situation even though it doesn't make sense and seems doesn't go well with my expectation.
And indeed, during my one week business trip, I was in the lowest point in my career since I went back to work force. I felt helpless and overwhelmed, alone in the desert. The more I pray, things get worse and intense, my stress hormone shoot up and my first reaction was to flight, behave cowardly and giving up.
I had self doubt whether I am good enough, have capacity etc. I start to browsing for new job in the LinkedIn but has a lot of fear whether I could do a good job.
God is with us and I felt His presence through His creation, people and strangers I met.
I had a catch up with my kind and primary friend which was 30 years ago, she knew I was a stay at home mom and asked me how's to be a working mom, what I did and how it goes so far.
When I was talking to her, she told me that I suit well with my job. She's a HR manager of prominent bank and she has met different kind of people with different kind of characters and she could judge people based on what they talk, body language. So when she told me that, it's an affirmation that sales or business development is the job that suits me well.
Then, the next day I met with my client and he introduced me to his fiancee. We talked a lot of things outside the job and he told his fiancee, if it's not because of me, he won't meet his fiancee.
His fiancé turned out to be his staff and when he has financing from us, he's able to hire more people to help his business growth thus he can meet his soulmate.
This is another affirmation that I have done the right thing and made an impact to other people's life directly or indirectly.
Last affirmation was I met a prospective client, he's a stranger and I never met him before, I only has his business card and as it's part of my job to do canvassing and setting up call, I messaged him in WA.
He agreed to meet me and in my surprise he's willing to open up and sharing his company's bad situation. And even he told me that many financing institution approached him even the big one in the market but he ignored them, but when I messaged him, somehow he wanted to meet me.
After he told me his story and plan, I was prompted to link him to my existing client's group hopefully they can help this company in damsel.
Again, this is the third affirmation that I have done the right thing to give an impact to other people's lives. I may not get the deals closed yet, but I feel peace and joy that I am able to help others.
In short, even though the situation doesn't make sense and goes according to my expectation, God is still presence and He will comfort us through His creation as long as we always open our eyes and ears.
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