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Reconciliation !

I got drunk after we came back from Adventure Cove, it's my first experience to dive deeper to the darkness and sorrow. I slept in the floor, no energy to stand up and fight, until hubby came and helped me out to bring to the bedroom.

He took care of me as I was half conscious and cried a lot because of my pain and sorrow. He listened to what I feel inside.

The first question I asked him when I was half conscious was "DO YOU LOVE ME?"

He answered and whispered to my ear said that "I LOVE YOU A MILLION TIMES"

Then, I was more calm down with his assurance.

After that, we started to talk heart to heart without any judgement. I told him what I feel inside and he understood and explained to me from his point of view. We apologised and forgave each other and he made me promised that I never got drunk any more when I was sad as he doesn't want me to be an alcoholic person.

He told me that it's fine to drink when you are happy but not when you are in the sorrow and we made it up after that.

We know that it's part of pruning time especially to cut our imperfection. The deeper we love each other, the deeper pruning is and the more evil waits for his chance to strike and destroy our love and relationship.

Despite all of these, I give thanks to God that we experienced this process. It's not fun and if I can choose, I definitely don't want to experience that. However, it's necessary if we want to keep our love sparks.

I give thanks to God also that we can be open to each other and our love grows deeper.




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