There's unresolved matters that I still kept in my heart, this is something that my fear is much more bigger than my faith which is open to new life. From three children I have, only one that I and my husband are really planning it, the rests are God's plan. When we decided to get married, I didn't expect that within 6 months of our marriage, God has planted a seed of life in my womb. We were married quite young, I and my husband were still in planning to carve out our career, did something to fulfil our dream, still wanted to live just two of us while saving some money for our future children. I was shocked, scared and excited at the same time, it's our first child and my first hands on experience of a lifetime because none of our relatives, cousins or close friends who were the same age with us back then were having the children. Being the first one is not easy, it's a leap of faith. Our first child was neither an easy kid, we were so struggli...