God's affirmations and answer

I have been in dilemma these past few weeks whether I should stay or try to look for new opportunity outside.

One part of me saying to stay as my ultimate objective is to help this company to be profitable then I'm done, however another part of me saying that I'm useless as I don't bring enough results and it feeds me with self-doubt.

I have been applying any business development / account executive / sales reps job in SaaS / tech industry without clear direction, it's more runaway from problem than intentionally looking for the job.

However, God gives me so many signs and affirmations to affirm that I need to stay here until the time is up for me to move to other companies.

These are some signs as far as I remember to affirm my decision

1. When I travelled to Jakarta last month and met my childhood friend, she's a HR manager of one of thhe prominent banks in Indonesia and she told me that this job suits me very well.

2. When I met my first client, he brought me for dinner and introduced me to his fiancee and told me that he's very grateful for our partnership, he is able to meet his fiancee and his business grows exponentially thus he asked me to stay in this company.

3. I met a prospective client which I had his business card when I attended the trade show and he told me that he never entertained other P2P but somehow he wanted to meet me and he's willing to share his company vulnerability, I feel so honoured and grateful for his trust.

4. When I speed-reading LinkedIn post and saw this view about hare and tortoise and strucked me. The hare is a fast moving animal but it's getting distracted easily and never reach the goal post while the tortoise is a slow moving but he keeps focus and able to reach the goal post. It's like a self-reminder.

5. When I went to prayer meeting last Saturday, the reading was exactly the same as what I had when I started my job with this company. It's kinda a reminder that God is the one who sends me and He will provide

6. Two days ago, hubby mentioned that his office will be moving to Pasir Panjang and after we check in the map, it turns out to be the building next door, it seems that God assures me that He won't leave me alone, He sends hubby to accompany and cheer me up

7. Today, I'm supposed to have phone interview, however a few minutes before the recruiter sent message to cancel the interview as they have different requirements. It sounds funny, but it's real.

So, I only can say that if this is what God wants for me to stay, let His will be done. It seems that I can never escape from His spirit.

I am not sure how, but I believe God will provide what I need, open the door for me, empower me so I am able to do His will.