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Before and after the wealth increased

I just want to reflect back in our marriage relationship, things have changed in the past 2 years.

We fought a lot especially over small stuffs and it's draining my energy level.

I didn't even know him like he used to be after starting working and our wealth increased.

He can be very sweet and another time I feel that I am like his biggest enemy. 

When we fought, he told me that I don't care about him, his feelings and his needs. I really don't understand what makes him think like that.

There are times that I can't accompany or obey his instructions right away not because I don't want but my physical body doesn't allow me to do that.

I love him the same from the day we met, present and future even he has done something wrong, hurt me, I am able to forgive, let go and move on.

But it seems that he expects me to please him more and more everyday.

It's very difficult to communicate with him nowadays. He will manipulate and make that everything I say is wrong.

Keeping silence, pondering and treasuring are just the only solutions I have.

The only ways to express out is writing this journal, praying and offering to God, letting go and move on. I can express myself freely without judgement and self healing process starts.




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