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Bak Kut Teh Story

Done 54 days Novena journey and ending it back to ground zero.

Answer ? None

Excitement ? None

Disappointment ? Yes

I feel discouraged and uneasy as there's no answer in my prayer request and in fact it seems that I need to stay in this company which I don't have any heart anymore.

I really want to take a break, start a new journey and feel excitement ! 

Currently I feel burn out, no more excitements, guilty feeling sometimes and feel that I am not able to grow even more.

Back to the story of Bak Kut Teh.

I have been craving Bak Kut Teh since the day before, so I told hubby let's have dinner bak kut teh at our usual place at Bukit Timah.

On the way there, the sky was very dark and when we reached there, it's pouring like cat and dog and we even couldn't get the carpark nearby there so we decided to go to the mall and the nearest one was JEM.

After parking, we went to the Bak Kut Teh restaurant at Jem and the queue was very long. We almost gave up and forgo our plan. I feel like I was played out so we decided to have a look at other restaurants from one floor to another floor until food court on the highest level.

We saw the banner that there's bak kut teh in the food court, when we visited the stall, it's different from what I expected and I didn't really like herbal bak but teh.

In the end, I told hubby let's go back to Bak Kut Teh restaurant in the basement 1 and I didn't mind to queue. So we went down and saw that the queue was getting shorter than when we came before.

So we decided to queue for 15 minutes and got our table.

It reminded me of my life journey too. I really want to resign and start new life but it's so difficult to be out.

I know that I had a free will if I want to force my own will but is it according to God's plan ?

I prefer to be obedient but it's like a torn in my flesh when everyday I walk soulless and without any excitement.

I even can't share my feeling to anyone. Hubby was very kind and spoilt me a lot thus I didn't want to burden him even more as he has done a lot for me and this family.

However, I can't lie to myself that I dragged my feet to work and hoping that there are job opportunities out there that are more suitable for me.




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