Self Rebellion and ambivalence

I am currently in the high stress stage and lead into self rebellion stage.

This year my goal is to go back to healthy life style that's why I decide to go into TONE Program in the hope to reset by body composition.

Unfortunately because of the strict diet rules, it attacks me back.

I am the person that very conscious about what I should and should not eat become very rebellious.

French fried, fried chicken are looks so good and yummy even though I know that it's not good for the body.

I have been craving something that actually I hate.

Topping up with my stress at work, it really double down the self rebellion.

When I have high stress, I just want to eat something that I like but due to this strict diet, I even can't eat it.

The diet rules said no fried food, no carbs, limit types of vegetables, fruits and cooking method.

It seems that my body fight hard for this rules.

Even exercise has specific rules, no cardio only weight resistance and I really want to do cardio instead.

Whatever the rules apply, I want to do the opposite.

It's kinda of frustrating as I don't even know myself and can't control it.

This is seriously mental games. I really need someone who's neutral to be my counsellor.

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