A Taste of Heaven

Yesterday, I reached a point where I felt completely overwhelmed.

I told God honestly, “I’m tired.”
Tired of trying to be a good and obedient girl while my work problems remain unsolved.

My business has no customers right now, which means no revenue. Yet the expenses keep coming — warehouse costs, the car, and other commitments. The waiting and uncertainty are exhausting.

I’ve been praying day and night.
Attending weekday Mass.
Completing the 54-day novena.
Praying to St. Joseph.

And still… nothing seems to change.

In my frustration, I even told God that it felt pointless to keep being obedient and faithful if everything stayed the same.

But this morning, something gentle happened.

While doing cardio at the gym, I was watching YouTube, and a video from Rick Warren about the six tests from God appeared. I clicked on it. Somehow it felt like God knew exactly what was going on in my heart.

The video led me to Hebrews 11, the chapter about faith.

And slowly, my doubts started to settle.

I felt God reminding me that living obediently and trying to be faithful has not gone unnoticed.

In fact, He has already allowed me to taste a little piece of heaven here on earth.

The unity and harmony in my family — a loving husband, kind and obedient children, peaceful relationships with parents, in-laws, and siblings — these are not small things. They are God’s grace.

When that kind of harmony is broken, no amount of money in the world can replace it.

And that realization humbled me.

The struggles in my work are not necessarily punishment. They may simply be the tools God is using to grow my faith and shape my character.

As long as I keep a clear conscience and continue trying to follow Him, these challenges are small compared to the blessings He has already given.

God may not always give a clear answer or direction.

But He promises something better — His presence in every step we take.

Even when we make the wrong decision because of our limited understanding, God is still able to straighten the path.

He is not looking for perfect answers.

He looks at how we make decisions, how we remain humble, and how we respond to the situations we face.

In my business journey, I also need to remember to stay humble — to listen to my husband, because sometimes God gives wisdom through him too. We may not always make the perfect choice, but God sees our intentions and our willingness to keep trying.

God already knows our financial situation.
He knows the future that we cannot see.

I don’t need to know everything.

I only need to trust that He is with us, and that His providence will always be enough.

And maybe , just maybe this quiet season without customers is not wasted time.

Maybe God is allowing us to rest now,
before the season comes when we will need to work hard again.