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The breakdown !

Thursday is our breakdown moment not only me but also hubby.

Continue from the previous story, when I couldn't take it anymore, I posted this in the insta.

One of our friends messaged me out of curious and empathy. As I was in the weakest point of my life, I told her that I was not okay, I had a marriage problem but I didn't tell her what was the issue.

She's shocked because she thought that we are always lovey dovey and couple goals.

In the afternoon, I took half day urgent leave because I couldn't focus in my work and planned to bring the kids to Sentosa having fun with them. I messaged my hubby and told him that I took half day leave.


He didn't reply me anything which I assumed he may be busy with works.

After lunch, closing my laptop, I closed the door and cried it out to God as I lose my best friend whom I could share my feeling, happiness and sadness.

Then, few minutes later, someone knocked the door, I thought it's my helper who informed me that there maybe someone looking for me.

Voila, when I opened the door, it's hubby. I was surprised and he saw me with swollen eyes.

I told him what had happened this morning until afternoon, he just listened to me.

Then, I decided to bring the kids out until before dinner.

When I came home, things were getting worse. I felt a bit better but now he's troubled.

I decided to tag along when he's going to give tuition. We talked a lot in the car, he poured out his feeling especially when I shared that we had marriage problem with one of our close friends.

He was so angry because he's afraid that everyone will look down to him and blamed him for what happened to me.

I tried to talk him out, but it made everything worse.

We talked until past midnight and it didn't solve any problems until both of us tired and feel a sleep.

But we couldn't sleep well. 

In the morning, we talked again and he broke down. He cried it out on my shoulder about his deepest feeling, bitterness, weaknesses that nobody knows.

Then, we decided to put on hold of our arguments since we had work to do.



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