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Found myself back

Last Wednesday we had another arguments after I shared the article from Focus on Family about Emotional Affairs. He didn't feel good and thought that I judged him and we were back to square 1 again even though he has done his best to win me back.

I knew and appreciated his efforts, the last 5 days during long weekend was one of the best days in my life that I felt over the moon and I didn't want to lose that moment.

Some parts of me still clinging on the hurt and felt insecure especially when he's going to meet his "former fling". I told him where I am coming from and he understood. He promised to show me all the chats he had and no secret and lies between us.

On Thursday, he asked me to follow him for his usual tuition but I preferred to have my "me time" so I ended up going for shopping therapy at Orchard. I bought some underwear and lingeries as well as casual tshirt because there is on - going promotion thus I thought it's a good deal.

At night, we played dress up to mix and match the clothes I just bought, I know what he wants thus I made conscious decision to buy the clothes that both of us like.

And the day after, I felt so good. It seems that I found myself back. I felt so sexy and wanted by him and besides the insecurity started to subside, trust starting to sprouting again.

I sent him a message this morning to thank him how I feel today and he's also grateful that I am able to find myself back and we are planning to have a date night tomorrow after his usual exercise.

This morning, since I am in the good mood, I create this reel which I feel it's cute haha



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