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Burn out !


I was so burn out at my work and career right now. I can't sleep well this week, I just felt the high energy inside me but it's in negative ways.

I felt so angry and helpless at the same time with the management. What I don't like is they're arrogant, yes they are smart and experienced people but they are not humble to learn from others.

It was so messy and chaotic inside and slowly the value was drifted from the vision and mission. The leadership team was lost but didn't want to listen to the market needs and feedback.

That's on the high level, on the micro level, I had little control on my time management. They tracked the timing in and out, no more flexible working arrangement.

I felt so powerless and tried to embrace the situation and told myself to keep going and walking.

But I knew inside that my heart was burning, I kept and suppressed the feeling, silence tear and smiling with pain.

I really want to say it quits, not because of the job itself, but the value, support are no longer aligned with mine.

I have been praying day and night but it seems the doors are still closed.

Not sure until when I could hold it, I just hope that God hears my cry and delivers me from this agony.






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